+ my friend sent me a picture and by the time i decided i wanted it he was gone and couldnt buy it.

-what picture?

+ it was a lighter. Look at the pic.

- your friend is a boy?

+yeah

- dont worrt love, i will order the best zippo lighter for you.

His jealousy was so adorable.

these past few days we didnt talk much. I overslept :))

It dosnt make whats between us even a bit cold.

last night he confessed. He said he never stopped using weed and he never stoped smoking. He lied. But i understand. He is lonely. Its goa be ok.

Also, he told me he wants me to be his wife. I know its not a big deal and it was just words but boy.... the happiness ...

” you just complain and talk and i will listen.” He said, while cooking his dier.

i often think of the things i have done. The choices i have made, which where so damn poor, and the people i met and left behind in the past.

I think this is a way of universe for rewarding me. This love, this deep happiness, i dont know if im lucky or i really deserve it?

The only thing that bothers me is the stupid overthinking. I studied neuro the past month and it didnt help. And now im studying infectious disease, certainly will not help. What if he gets sick? All those weed and cigarettes ... he promised he’d be ok. But it really doesn’t make any difference:(

i am a dictator. A total self centered dictator and i can not help it. Although i usually play logically but still, it is really hard to communicate with me.

But he knows how to get inside. I put down half the dictatorship when im with him. He is so precious to me.